Saturday, February 23, 2008

Describing Myself...

My passion is people...especially the hearts of the little children i get to take care of--every single moment is an accomplishment to them & to their families--& through all the pain & suffering that they go through, they have the strength & determination of most "giants" of the world...

My passion lies in being able to help them--even if its just by listening, crying, or even laughing with them--jumping into bed with them & reading them stories or being silly with them--but mostly it lies in just loving them...& i can never, & will never, be able do enough of that...

My interests are many--i don't excel in any one thing, but i am pretty good at most things i try, & i am humbled every day at the talent of those around me. I keep myself busy with everything i can--which can be both good & bad--& i haven't quite figured out how to focus on & conquer just one thing. I find reasons to love everything i do & i want to share that happiness with everyone i can. I love the outdoors and being active. I love laughing & giving others reasons to laugh (sometimes i think i am the funniest person around, but most of the time i am the only one who thinks it) & i absolutely love learning...not just from words in books (i don't spend enough time reading much of anything these days), but from my own experience & from what others have experienced. No two experiences are the same--& its amazing to learn from what others find fascinating & the things that are important to them in their lives....

For the past couple of months, i've been feeling as though i'm not doing enough for others...that i spend too much time focusing on myself & that i am not accomplishing everything that i should be. Yet through this, I still feel like i am running as fast as i can to get to a destination I am not even sure of--or even one that I want to be at. Its like i'm climbing a million ladders that will eventually lead to the same place, but trying each ladder just to make sure...

And although my story seems at times to be complex, its actually quite simple--& the absolute best part is that its ongoing & constantly changing. I've been to places i never thought i would be & become someone i never thought i could be. I have been given so much & have so much to give & to be thankful for--of which I try to (but not always succeed at) being grateful for...

The one thing i do know, is that life doesn't always go the way I planned--or even the way I thought it should...& to be honest, it doesn't even make sense half the time---but there is always something amazing in each day...& its in the littlest of all moments that lie the greatest gifts I have been given---& if I let them, these moments can also help mold me into who I need to become...

I just have to remember that with God, all things truly are possible!! He knows me beyond any comprehension i may think i have--& He knows what is best for me in every situation. I have faith in Him & in His plan for me--even when it seems as though this faith (or the borrowed faith of those I love most) is the only thing I have left to hold onto ...

4 comments:

Michelle said...

Trina...found your blog on facebook. I just want to tell you how amazing you are! I wish we lived closer to eachother so we can hang out more. You are someone I look up to!
Love you,
Michelle

Anonymous said...

Hello Trina,
Je suis tombee sur ton blog par hasard via le blog de Bobbi. Je ne sais pas si tu te rappelles de moi. Laetitia Arnaud de la branche de Chambery pendant ta mission. Je me souviens de toi en mission et de la fois ou je t ai vu quand j etais aux USA. J aimerai bien avoir de tes news. Mon adresse email est laetitia.maeva@free.fr
Je t ai jamais oublie. J espere a bientot

Kuya said...

Loved your thoughts on this one. I agree, and I served with an Elder Pond who had that on his missionary plaque!! Luke 1:37, "With God, nothing shall be impossible." I should introduce you two...

supermombritt said...

I saw your blog on facebook and marked it in my favorites so I can see what you are doing. It was fun tor ead what you have been experiencing. It sounds like you have really grown up and know who you are and what you want.